This week I am celebrating once month of freedom since I quit my job.
I would love to tell you that every minute has been amazing.
But that would be a lie.
Don’t get me wrong, I am so appreciative to have this opportunity and there are a lot of things that I love. But it has been a huge adjustment! This is the first time I haven’t had a “real” job since I was 12 years old.
That’s a really really really long time.
And I don’t really want to get into the details, but it was a really bad work environment. So bad that I don’t think I realized how much it impacted me. I feel like I do a pretty good job of letting things fall off my shoulders and not get to me, but I guess after a year of hearing it day after day… it starts to get to you.
So for the past month, it’s been a healing process. Trying to find who I am again and realizing that I’m pretty awesome. (Hey, I’m not gonna lie… )
I am so happy that I have had this opportunity and really kind of mad at myself that I stayed at a place that made me so unhappy for so long. But, when it comes down to it, the money always talks.
Beyond that, it has felt a little weird to not have a “job.” The first few weeks when I was out and people would ask me what I did, I really wasn’t sure how to answer. “Oh, well, you see, I just quit my job and now…” I’ve learned that the right answer is to say I’m a freelance writer. Because that’s the truth. And it’s something that I’m proud of.
So, to get down to the good parts. What I’ve loved so far:
- Being able to sleep in if I want to. I have tried to wake up around the same time each day so I still have a schedule. But somedays… that just doesn’t happen. And I like knowing that I can cater to my body when I need to and get that extra sleep that I want.
- Eating because I’m hungry! I was so miserable at my job that food was a crutch. Eating lunch was what I looked forward to the moment I walked in the door. If it was a rough day, I was leaving to find a snack (= Swedish fish + Mountain Dew). Food was on my brain77% of the time throughout the day and it feels good that it no longer is the case.
- Reconnecting with friends. I felt like I was big gigantic jerk to my friends for the past six months. I was so tired and emotionally drained that I really didn’t want to talk to anyone. It has been so nice building up my friendships again.
- Weekday happy hours. Best ever. C would text me when he was done with work (at 3:30… lucky guy!) and wish we could do happy hour. Sure… can we go at 8 p.m.? It’s awesome that we can now do this whenever the weather looks good.
- Doing things for ME. I love to do lists. I love to do lists even more when it’s a bunch of things that I want to do. I am enjoying my freelance work and it’s been fun to uncover other opportunities.
- Enjoying the days. I used to start counting down to Friday on Sunday morning. #notcool It feels good to actually enjoy the weeks. Oh, and not have that pit of dread in my stomach all day on Sunday.
- Walking slow. You know how awesome it feels to not be in a big, sweaty rush going somewhere? The other day I went to the grocery store. It was nice out, so I sat in this little park for 10 minutes. I went to the grand opening of a new store on my way somewhere else.
- Talking to my dad at random times of the day. He quit his job a few weeks before me, so it’s fun that we are not working at the same time. That means I can call him at 2 p.m. on a Wednesday for a random talk.
- Spending time on strength/core training! I used to be in such a rush all the time that I would always skip this. I’m not perfect at it, but definitely spending more time than I used to. Now let’s hope that it pays off.
- Trying new things. There is something about being chained to a desk that doesn’t make you feel very adventurous. And I’m someone that likes a little chaos in my life. It feels good to have the energy to try new things or listen to new music.
I’m sure that list will only continue to grow, and like I said, I’m so thankful to have this opportunity and really get the chance to heal and focus on myself. The biggest thing I’ve learned is never let unhappiness rule your life. Happiness should always be number one. If there’s something in your life making you unhappy… get. out. now.