I know, I know — age is nothing but a number, right?
But there is still something monumental about turning 30. It just feels like a bigger deal, and I think my last big deal birthday was when I turned 25 because of the fact that I could rent cars without paying an arm and a leg.
I have gone back and forth between being excited for this day and dreading it at the same time. The dread comes from the idea of losing my youth; the thought of getting one year older and hitting the next decade. Knowing that the next time I hit this milestone — of passing 30 years — I will like be a grandmother, have gray hair and reaching the end of my career. It feels so far away, yet it doesn’t quite feel that far out of reach.
I think the best way I’ve figured out how to compare leaving my 20s is to compare it to how it felt like when we left NYC. I talked about it a little bit here, but man, was that a weird feeling. We were so ready to leave — don’t get me wrong — I had lived my dream to its fullest and it was time to close that chapter. But when that apartment door closed for the last time, it was a little overwhelming to think that my biggest bucket list item had come true and I was moving on from it.
I kinda feel like that’s what it’s like to close the door on my 20s. There were so many amazing moments throughout those years.
Graduating from college.
Moving across the country. Three times.
Living in NYC.
Qualifying for the Boston Marathon and running the race three times.
Running 15 other marathons… and finishing the Boston 2 Big Sur Challenge!
Finding a permanent home in Austin.
And the list can go on and on and on…
So yes, I feel like there have been some crazy emotions leading up to this day; some interesting perspectives that make aging seem so painful… but (beyond having no choice) I am ready to embrace what the next decade brings and celebrate each moment along the way!
After all, I do have a new bucket list item that’s just as amazing as NYC… 😉
What’s your #1 bucket list item? Have you accomplished it?
Do you get sad/weird emotions on your birthday?
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