I apologize in advance because this is going to be a very whiny and complaint heavy post.
But, I’m so frustrated. And so irritated.
I am to the point where I hate food.
Why, you may ask?
I feel like no matter what I do, I cannot lose weight. If anything, I gain weight! I eat less, nothing happens. I eat more? Same result (well, minus that time when I went to the nutritionist and she told me that I needed to increase my calorie intake and gained 8 lbs in 3 weeks… that was fun.). I try eating every four hours so my body doesn’t go into starvation mode; I skip the snacks and focus on bigger meals. I cut down on the sweets, I eliminate eating the “bad for you” food that I love… and no results.
I just don’t understand.
Backing up, nutrition has always been a struggle for me. I’ve always had a bit of a weight problem (as a baby, this is super cute because you are chunky and wrinkly but as a teenager, not so much) and got to a point where I was at a good weight in college. Granted, my meals consisted of Pop Tarts and Mellow Yellow for lunch and noodles with spaghetti sauce for dinner. But, hey, it seemed to work.
When I first started running marathons, I had so many hanger issues that I would eat and eat and eat. I didn’t gain weight and it seemed to be working. As I’ve recently realized, your body gets more efficient the longer you run marathons… so you burn less calories over time. So all the eating from the first few marathons? Not necessary at this point in my running.
And well, I know. I don’t eat 100% healthy all the time, but I do most of the time. I don’t eat fast food, I skip the chips and I limit my soda intake to one can a few times a week.
If I do decide to splurge on some true junk food, I literally will be two pounds heavier the next day. I am totally not exaggerating.
I know, the scale isn’t everything and it should be avoided in some cases. But when you see the numbers slowly creeping up, it makes you frustrated and feel so many angry emotions.
I haven’t truly tried everything, I’ll admit that. I could do a no sugar diet, I could go completely clean and not eat any junk. The reason why I’m hesitant to do that is because it feels like a short-term fix. Don’t eat sugar for a month, see how it feels and go back to how I was eating. Eat clean, but get thrown off track when I can’t adhere to it because of travel or a forgotten lunch at work.
There is something that has been in the back of my mind for awhile, something that I tried a few years ago when we were in New York, but I wasn’t ready to commit at the point.
It’s this book written by Lyn-Genet Recitas. The idea behind it is… well, I think this description is better than I can ever put into words:
Nutrition expert Lyn-Genet Recitas reveals the surprising truth behind what actually makes people pack on the pounds. Carbs and portion sizes, it turns out, are not the problem. Foods that are revered by traditional weight loss programs, such as turkey, eggs, cauliflower, beans, and tomatoes, may be healthy in a vacuum, but when combined with each person’s unique chemistry, they can cause a toxic reaction that triggers weight gain, premature aging, inflammation, and a host of health problems including constipation, migraines, joint pain, and depression.
So throughout the program, you cut your diet down to “basic” foods that work for everyone… and then try a new ingredient each day. She has you try common trigger foods first, to see if they work for you, and based on how they make you feel (and if you gain the next day), you know whether or not it’s a “good” food or not. So, it may reveal that yes, you can eat ice cream but no, you can’t eat tomatoes. And over time, you create a new eating regimen based on what’s best for your body.
The thing I like the most about it is that you have this knowledge. So if you find out that your body hates avocados (that would be a sad day) and you eat some guacamole, you know exactly why you feel like crap the next day.
So, wish me luck as I embark on this journey again and I hope that I can finally be on track to feel healthy and confident in my skin — after all, that’s all I want! The scale will simply be a tool for me as a I head down this path.
Do you struggle with a similar weight issue? Find anything to help?
Anyone else heard of/tried “The Plan”? Thoughts?
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