Today is a cliche day of the year to think about all that we are thankful for, but even if it is the most cliche thing to do, I do love this tradition.
It’s amazing to think about how much my life has changed in the past year.
Last year at this time, I felt like my entire life was in shambles and was a ball of stress… as you may remember me posting about a few months ago, I filed for divorce earlier this year and it was about this time of year last year when everything truly fell apart. Hindsight is 20/20, so I definitely see it from a different perspective now, but it felt like everything collapsed in a matter of months… with November truly being the pinnacle of it all.
But I remember feeling like I was never going to feel happiness again and I was going to be stuck in a miserable state forever. It’s funny how you can be so short-sighted on things. I couldn’t even see what life would look like if I did the unthinkable and walk away. There was a part of me that even was like, well maybe this situation isn’t SO bad and I can stick around.
I am so thankful that I didn’t.
My life is completely different now. Different home, different job, different goals, different weekend plans. Everything is just different, and in such a good way. It’s the way that my life was supposed to be, and I see that now. Of course, a year ago, if you would have told me that this was how my life looked; that I would be the happiest I’ve been in years and living a life that I loved, I would have looked at you like you were a crazy person.
So what I’m trying to get at is that what I’m thankful for is a little bit different this year, and a little bit different than I ever thought it would be. I am now thankful that my life fell apart and that I found the strength to focus on what I deserved instead of what I wanted. It would have been easy to just sit back and let life roll by, living out the situation because it was the easy thing to do.
I think Theodore Roosevelt said it best: Nothing in the world is worth having or worth doing unless it means effort, pain, difficulty… I have never in my life envied a human being who led an easy life. I have envied a great many people who led difficult lives and led them well.
I will never in a million years wish what I went through on someone else, but now that I’ve moved past it, I am thankful for that experience because it’s given me the life that I have today and I wouldn’t change a thing.
And for people who may be going through something similar —> it DOES get better. Hold on, believe in yourself and know that you are strong. Fight for what you deserve. Surround yourself with people that support you and lift you up. It won’t be easy, but it will be worth it. And you will be thankful you did just that.
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